i.will.have.my.cake.and.eat.it.too.

i've been in the mood for cake since saturday, when i watched the 1st annual wedding cake making championship competition on the food network. the thing i respect about this competition is the passion and expertise that went into making these delectable masterpieces. i wondered if the designers/cooks would dare eat such an elaborate project. Many designs left me confused as to how you could even cut it! I think, were I a baker, half my joy would be in indulging into something that took so much work and patience.
today i accepted a new job, a real job- in the process of turning down several competitive offers. i am blessed to be in a position to choose, but this decision took more out of me than I could afford. I am indecisive. I prefer to walk the thin line of in-between and consideration rather than jump boldy on that side of the solid yellow line. today, i cracked down on that. i made the phone calls, said the script, and closed the chapter. i thought i would vomit afterwards, but i took a few deep breaths and the smile began crawling across my face. homebase, safe. remaining.
next chapter begins here.